In Abstentia

He is not here, you who

See by pink and little light,

His clothes therein discarded, limp—

A smirking stranger too, in white.

He is not here, the eye

Confirms what happened by the night;

The heart however galloping

And speaking without words takes flight.

He is not here, the first

To break the spell of sleep, with bright

Contortions morning tries and comes

And turns to fools the erudite.

He is not here, and yet

He is, incredulous by lens and sight;

He is not here—alas,

He is out bringing low the high and might.

‘Tis the Season

Polls and pundits tell us, “no one is watching,” “Americans are fed-up,” “this doesn’t feel like a momentous occasion.” And indeed it doesn’t. The U.S. House of Representatives has impeached the president, almost twenty-one years to the day of President Clinton’s undoing by the same legislative body. And the 76ers lost their first home game of the season.

When a colleague insists for three-plus years that he’s going to introduce himself to the attractive new brunette in HR and repeatedly doesn’t, news of the event when it finally does transpire could be, understandably, underwhelming. The novelty of the idea has waned considerably. Said colleague has, in the interim, proven to be annoyingly clingy and a real cad. Your attention is already divided between myriad things of the utmost urgency and importance: the leftover cake in the break room, the hundreds of unread emails in the Amazonian sprawl of your inbox, the lower-back pain. 

And Christmas. The Democrats have impeached a president mere inches from Christmas. This week is, undoubtedly, for many Christians and non-Christians alike, the most harried and heartburn-inducing of the year. For others it is the most anticipated and joyous. Adventus! In any case the season is not ripe for mass hypnosis by our governing and media elites. The people (remember them?) are kinda distracted.

So some of us await the arrival of a (ahem, the) king, and some are actively engaged in disposing another. It’s a moment of profound chiaroscuro, the powerless (a child) pitched against the powerful (the law and its players). Herod, Caesar, Trump, Pelosi—the names change but “the song remains the same.” Power is the essence of worldliness, and its games are played across time and distance. The birth of Christ, however, transcends them. We celebrate a helpless infant not to, of course, spite an enemy or score points, but to remind ourselves of our humanity and our common finitude. 

And yet this child is so much more to us. Because of him we know of our infinitude, as well. Because of him we know victory in this life is not to be found on Capitol Hill but in defeat, so we might, as Matthew Schmitz wrote in First Things, “enjoy triumph in the next.” For “heaven and earth will pass away.” Because of him we know we are imperfect and are forgiven for being so, and in forgiving—even our enemies—we are made, like Christ, more perfect. Because of him we know death’s dominion is not total, that it is but a door, through which our relationship with Christ really begins. We know love is not a quality of mass organization, policy or election, but the very substance of God—good, indestructible God. 

Because of this child we know our bodily existence is precious, but not ultimate. Yes, God was made flesh, warm blubbery flesh. But it was a kind of loving condescension. He descended unto us to demonstrate the truth of the cosmos: that eternal life is possible. Don’t become so attached to this one. Matter will perish. Our parents will perish. You will perish. Rome, the Eternal City, will perish. The Bill of Rights, these fancy clothes, record collections, cars, mansions, molecules, your résumé, every tweet; matter will perish. Earth will pass away. But in spirit, in Christ—should we choose—life will continue.

“It is sublimely simple,” notes Malcolm Muggeridge of Christ’s ministry in our wretched world, “a transcendental soap-opera going on century after century and touching innumerable hearts. […] With the Incarnation came the Man, and the addition of a new spiritual dimension to the cosmic scene.” So what of the big, red headline in this morning’s paper? Psshaw. The drama unfolding in Washington, D.C. is but a flea circus, a sideshow to the main attraction unfolding in the hearts of millions of good people this Christmas. Let’s rejoice! A king is born. 

“The universe provides a stage,” Muggeridge says. “Jesus is the play.” This I want to see.

Image: Bosch, Hieronymus. Adoration of the Magi. 1510.

Oppobrium

What is the opposite of an encomium? No, that’s not a (lame) joke. Whatever it is, this (below) is it. For as Remy Wilkins asserts in Theopolis, “blunting the sword of your mouth benefits only the enemies of the kingdom,” and I intend to cut them down. 

I’ve long detested the holier-than-thou, ad hominem attack style of author Tim Egan, perhaps because—at my weakest—there’s a whiff of it in my writing, too. The (alleged) hypocrite is his perennial target—read his biweekly opinion pieces in The New York Times—and perhaps I subconsciously fear/wish he’ll one day train his proverbial guns on me. Or perhaps because we are alums of the same university and share a hometown I see him as a kind of traitor, as a wayward brother. At any rate, we share little else. His politics mirror the predictable salad of leftist causes—vitriol for the traditional, skepticism of any virtue that challenges the religions of environmentalism and multiculturalism, and innumerable other -isms and anti-isms. He lives in Seattle.

Egan, promoting a new book, returned home this week to discuss it, and, though I couldn’t secure tickets to the event, I wrote an op-ed of my own—hence the brevity—hoping the local paper would publish it. They didn’t, so here it is.

Tim Egan is not alone in thinking “the Catholic Church is sick with sex.” The well-documented sacerdotal problem with pedophilia, systemic seminarian abuse, scandals and cover-ups; you catch the drift. It disgusts.

But his solution? More sex. “Celibacy should be optional,” he writes in a New York Times op-ed published last year. His logic? That’ll mitigate the temptations of perverts rife in the ranks of the cloth. What Egan doesn’t understand is that celibacy is to the priesthood what marriage is to the laity: a commitment to love of the highest order, only with Christ the bridegroom. 

Deny yourself, He preached. It’s an order anathema to those of a culture of decadence and “self care” (“treat yourself,” “take it easy,” “just do it”) because it is a tall order. “To be priest” means to empty yourself of worldliness so that you can be filled with Christ, with the eternal, with Truth. Celibacy, then, says writer Patricia Snow, is a promise, “to live, in advance, the nuptial realities of heaven.” 

Fidelity to God and His Kingdom—it was once a noble aim. And a costly one; preferable even, but realized by so few. An honor, in other words. A triumph over our enduring fallibility. Egan’s take, however, in reducing such a calling to an act of cheap grace, makes a mockery of human aspiration, and reveals the author’s search for “a faith” to be nothing more than the vicissitude of a muckraking dilettante. 

In his new book he asks, “How can you believe in a savior whose message was peace and passive humility, when the professional promoters of that message were complicit in so much systematic horror?” That’s easy. Because He is the savior even of the most embryonic and ignorant seeker: the man who, in his quest for eternity, sees only his reflection at the center of history. The man who, consumed by darkness, confounds the morning with the light of Christ.

Image: Jones, David. Crucifixion. A Child’s Rosary Book. 1924.

Outside the City Walls

Moonfall in a crown of thorns—

A horrid death its chill forewarns,

Still merrily its minions grope

For irons and a length of rope,

And melt their hands on glowing coals,

Their gaze upon a place of skulls,

In want of night to hide the fear

Of innocence they’ve fettered here—

Humiliated, flogged with shame,

The brutes don’t even know His name

Or shudder when in pain He cries,

But not to curse or criticize—

“Forgive them, please” is what He said,

These servants of the living dead,

Beholden to His blood and dust,

To dust, for everlasting life, they must

Condemn the stranger, hang Him high—

Then truth will have eclipsed the lie.

Image: Caravaggio. The Flagellation of Christ (detail). 1610.

Labor and Delivery

I am an age-old thing—

Behold! the hermit king.

Alone I dwell in humble lairs

My hours spent composing prayers,

Minute and monolithic works

Within which doubts and longings lurk.

To be a vessel of true love,

The tree that feeds and shades the dove,

In seeking mercy and His face

I fast and sing, repent, replace

My heart of stone with flame and flesh,

Tin armor for a porous mesh.

The better to become a sieve

And covet not how others live,

But wander solitary, die—

Inside and out a passerby.

Make Hell While the Sun Shines

What is it about control, about the habit of organizing others according to one’s wishes, of remaking them into one’s own image? It exists in the playground bully, the pernicious smothering of an overzealous mother, in the micromanaging office supervisor and, most troublingly, in the machinations of national governments. Like our seemingly fathomless appetite for sex and sweets, the impulse to manipulate another person has proven indestructible, and, if I may, I’d like to riff a minute on this baffling–and disturbing–human tendency.

Like Chet Baker, “I’m old fashioned / that’s how I want to be.” But there we part ways–I don’t believe “this year’s fancies are passing fancies.” The intellectual kind, at least. If they fade in the popular imagination, let’s chalk it up to something of a reculer pour mieux sauter. Like Lavoisier’s law of matter, I think ideas are neither created nor destroyed, even the particularly heinous ones.

So, just as the (supposed) dismantling of Daesh (IS, ISIS, ISIL, Islamic State of Iraq and the Levant) in Syria has only paused Salafi dreams of a caliphate in the Middle East and Europe, the death of Josef Stalin on March 5, 1953 did not halt the march of communism (nor make for particularly profound cinematic grist, unless you’re partial to four letter words). 

It metastasized in the hearts and minds of the Czech people. Milan Kundera, iconoclast and favorite son, wrote in The Unbearable Lightness of Being that they were “convinced they had discovered the only road to paradise.” Not until the nonviolent “Velvet Revolution” of 1989 did they realize their blunder.

In Hungary, too, the Marxist dream of universal brotherhood found bonhomie with Soviet barbed wire and boots for much of the twentieth century, until 1990, when the soldiers finally boarded–in a stroke of tragic irony–thousands of railway cars bound for the heart of an empire in disarray. But it was a communism not so much of blackouts and breadlines but of private restaurants and–imagine it–used car lots. They called it gulyáskommunizmus, or goulash communism–a mix, like the savory dish, of ideologies. 

Inspired by the “Polish thaw,” a loosened leash allowed for some movement of capital and consumer goods, even some dissent. But it was still a society monitored by secret police, a society where entrepreneurs erected their dreams in a clandestine side-show. Young Americans like to speak these days of their “oppression,” quaffing a small-batch IPA at brunch. Party hard-liners in Hungary permitted a single state-owned brewery, “and the beer was terrible,” notes a historian in The New York Times in 1983. 

These countries did shed the yoke of communism, and one prays the beer has improved in due course, but the idea persists. As Rousseau observed, “Man is born free, and everywhere he is in chains.” The temptation to manage in toto, to curb if necessary, is terribly seductive to those who resent–and fear–the autonomy of others. For political systems of control–like those of the Soviet bloc yesterday and Xi Jinping’s China today–are fundamentally systems of fear–of achievement, of distinction, of possibility and, basically, of nature. 

And these systems are extrusions of the people who build them. I know a man who cannot sit in peace at a quiet restaurant because he chooses, instead of making conversation with his table mates, to hone in on those transpiring around him. If the voices are too loud or vile for his liking, and because he cannot in good conscience interrupt them to say so, his temper simmers until it boils over and he exits in a huff. He despises the “spontaneous eruptions of joy” at a neighborhood ballpark, the evening lawnmowers and barking crows that trespass on his cone of silence.

To this man, and to bureaucrats of his ilk in positions of power, the unpredictable, liquid dance of life is a fount of anxiety and animus. It must be composed, tamed, willed into submission. And with force if it resists. His comfort, his illusion of protection, is sacrosanct. Hence, the exterior world–everything beyond his jurisdiction–is suspect. It is, ultimately, a canvas not for creation but criticism. 

It is self-preservation–an existential fear of bodily death, really–in its ugliest manifestation, the embryonic spirit of malice and violence. Is it any wonder the most authoritarian societies are the most explicitly brutal? Fear rationalizes the objectification of the stranger, even of the friend, so that she can be coerced and corralled. Even her death is seen in the abstract. What matters is the continuation of the self. Homo homini lupus–“man is a wolf to man.”

Accordingly, this spirit, albeit a (to-date) diluted strain of the kind that ravaged so much of twentieth century Europe, has found sanctuary today in the peoples of the West, the very architects of its progenitor’s demise. They call it socialism. Perhaps out of guilt, spiritual lethargy or sheer stupidity it has been embraced, particularly by impressionable youth, with an almost messianic fervor. Why? It is a Weltanschauung that–in the wake of a retreating church–appears to offer identity, meaning (“Women have better sex under socialism,” claims author Kristen R. Ghodsee) and eventually–after the revolution, of course–security.

Its detractors shrug with the air of a drunken (and fat) Jack Kerouac in conversation–on a 1968 episode of Firing Line–with academic Lewis Yablonsky and Ed Sanders of the Fugs before an amused William F. Buckley. When Yablonsky raises the subject of hippie endearment to psychedelic drugs we see a scowling Kerouac give an emphatic “thumbs down” as Sanders–a mile-wide smile creeping across his face–jerks his enthusiastically upwards. 

“I believe in order, tenderness and piety,” slurs a visibly defeated Kerouac, lamenting ideals given short shrift by the unwelcome inheritors of his beatific vision–the hippies–who instead espouse a “misanthropic”–Buckley’s word–regime of disorder, callousness and profanity. Half a century on their children and grandchildren are the evangelists of socialism, a doctrine more virile than ever, operating under the guise of anti-fascism, moral rectitude and a cloak of shibboleths (“Good night white pride,“ “Resist!” “Destroy the patriarchy!”).

This is the metaphysical sputum of philosopher Michel Foucault’s infatuation with perversion–what his biographer, James Miller, termed “the creative potential of disorder”–that has legitimized violence and moved a protégé, author Édouard Louis, to declare, “There is no truth without anger” and “it would be indecent these days for writers to talk of anything else but violence.” 

See? With a flick of the wrist–voilà–up is down, down is up. This is the modus operandi of the control freak–to limit, to critique, to cultivate the politics of j’accuse–and his grand strategy, socialism. It is nothing less than a contemporary incarnation of the fallout from original sin, what Paul Krause in The Imaginative Conservative describes as “the lust to dominate what would produce our happiness through an inversion of the natural order of right and wrong.”

Like the communist scourge before it socialism is predicated on this ineradicable lie. Ineradicable because it is the defining characteristic of human nature: our fallenness. Our malignancy. Cut it out of the lungs and it takes in the breast tissue. Snuff it out in Prague and it reemerges in Tangiers. Bury it there and it surfaces in Birmingham. In Portland. In Concepción. Ever in flux–hiding and seeking–like the sands of Namibia.

Look no further than Jeremy Corbyn’s Labour Party of the United Kingdom for evidence of its noxious presence. Just this past week, at a party conference, the “center-left” group voted (ironically) to abolish private schools–redistribute their investments and endowments to the state–if given the keys to govern in the next general election. Instead of acting as an agent of growth the socialist, remember, aims to displease. She demands submission. Wherever inequality leads (i.e. wherever liberty nourishes the kaleidoscopic display of life) the socialist follows. Wherever humanity thrives the socialist is there to bridle it and to shush it. 

Because the desire to rule is a distortion of the gift of life. It is a cardinal feature of this world. From time immemorial subjugation has been–and remains–the way of the control freak. When the methods of the iron fist–i.e. those of Hitler’s Third Reich, Stalin’s Red Terror, Mao’s Cultural Revolution, etc.–meet resistance in men of conscience, they’re simply morphed into a less obvious but more duplicitous design. Tyranny, in other words–say, those of the business professional–, has merely been “rebranded” or–in those of the psychologist–“feminized” pari passu with modern sensibilities. 

Alexis De Tocqueville, in the 1830s, recognized the phenomenon as a kind of perpetually wagging forefinger that “does not tyrannize” but “compresses, enervates, extinguishes and stupefies” with a “network of small complicated rules, minute and uniform.” Its fruit is a “new kind of servitude” wherein, “the will of man is not shattered but softened, bent and guided.” But instead of the merciful Lamb of God it is the administrative state that shepherds him from cradle to grave.

Any parent of a precocious child, or Silicon Valley success guru, will warn against this. Individuals learn through failure–there must be room for mistakes, or, rather, the possibility of making a mistake. This is a crucial qualitative distinction. For on the larger scale of governing, where F.A. Hayek treads, “it is more important to […] release the creative energy of individuals than to devise further machinery for ‘guiding’ and ‘directing’ them–to create conditions favorable to progress rather than to ‘plan progress.’” It was true in 1945, when much of Western civilization had been reduced to a smoldering ruin, and it is true still, today, on the brink of ever new catastrophes.

We are stubborn, broken creatures. We fill our sad hearts with too much cake and too much gin. But we mustn’t be told we cannot. “The road of excess leads to the palace of wisdom,” says William Blake in his Proverbs of Hell, and later, “for we never know what is enough until we know what is more than enough.” 

The control freak, however, knows and acts accordingly. If humanity is to ever escape the ceaseless cycle of violence, perhaps, as Carl Jung suggests, society must trade containment for caritas. Indeed, “Where love stops,” he wisely observes, “power begins, and violence and terror.”

Photo: Foucault, Michel. Date and photographer unknown.

Knock Knock. Who’s There?

Shortly after seven in the evening a plume of boiling pink stuff cut a cleft into the firmament. Sheared it in two. And I was there to see it. I’m talking about a sunset, employing a bit of purple prose because it was that magnificent. The way it paused the day, hanging there, pouring out in ripples like a spilled electric smoothie; how could it be? I thanked God. 

And beneath it (and Him), in the dark, cars are pulling into driveways, neighbors are cooking and laughing, a dog is barking. My stomach is full of food. It is a Tuesday. Judith Hearne, in the Brian Moore novel on my nightstand, is forever off “to the last [bus] stop, the lonely room, the lonely night.” 

I wasn’t quite sure what I wanted to express about this sunset, or how, when I began typing tonight. But it was remarkable; that I knew. It merited a recording, if only a reminder that it happened, that an ordinary moment was penetrated by a scene so captivating it warranted my explicit attention. Vox audita perit litera scripta manet, as the Romans would say. “The heard voice perishes, but the written letter remains.”

More than its obvious beauty I was struck by the sunset’s unexpectedness. Like locking eyes with a smiling stranger, it was the kind of event that obliterates time and, subsequently, the petty doubts and errant wants that animate so many of our waking hours. Mine, at least. Achtung! “Pay attention,” it seemed to command, but with fantastic hues and billowing forms instead of words. Imagine that–a sky made of words. Nature as a sloganeering word processor. Shudder to think of that kind of mouth; it would never shut-up. 

Much to the chagrin of physicists (and despots), the cosmos are mute, and rightly so. What wonder spelled out, literally, for ease of interpretation and clarity would ever stoke the imagination or turn the heart of some “lonely watcher on the hills”? Take three giants of such visionary inspiration: Ulysses, Coleridge’s Kubla Khan and the Panasonic NN-ST776SQPQ Inverter Microwave Oven operation manual. Do you see what I mean? There must be some sensual incoherence, some inherent ambivalence, in a work for it to assert any kind of dominion over the psyche. 

Take, say, a sunset. 

Or a prayer. It’s no coincidence, the devout tell us, the most effective and humble way to God’s presence is through the mantra, or in the case of Christianity the repetition–aloud or silent–of the short “Jesus prayer” (“Lord Jesus, have mercy on me”). Forget “Lord, thank you for the promotion and for yesterday’s victory in the ball game and forgive me for my impatience at the gas pump and” ad nauseam. Forget prayer as billboard and prayer as epistolary solitaire. The point is to lose yourself, to, paradoxically, silence yourself. To shut-up and focus.

“Absolutely unmixed attention is prayer,” observed the French philosopher Simone Weil. Distraction, then, is what? Anxiety? Indifference? Our age is rife with it. Nothing sinister per se, but it demonstrates a kind of prideful bondage to helplessness. And yet we live in an Age of Perceived Certainty. In our abilities, in our superiorities, in ourselves. Perhaps we’d benefit from a dose of humility, the kind dispensed via sunset, to recall our true place on the cosmic ladder. To see anew our limitations and, in essence, our humanity. For, “Impossibility,” Weil argued, “is the door of the supernatural. We can only knock at it. Someone else opens it.” 

Is this not the formula for adventure? The word descends from the Latin advenire, to arrive, which implies a leaving and, of course, a risk. Flight. It requires an Other and an encounter. It asks for submission. It is the beginning of faith.

Modernity, on the other hand, increasingly resembles the end of adventure, the proverbial Panasonic instruction manual. Safety is paramount. Perhaps that is why I am so enamored with Tuesday’s sunset. Because it was such a surprise, pregnant with possibility, the unknown and the strange. Modernity demands conformity and eschews risk for the sake of economy and, alas, at the expense of life, of bewilderment and majesty. Of adventure. My sunset is its triumph, the redemption of the baroque, the frilly and weird, over the banal. It’s Mario Irarrázabal’s Mano del Desierto reaching through the sand, the flower on the tarmac. Glorious is the word that comes to mind.

I think it’s Christ, too, overcoming the world.

Photo: Escalier, Marcos. Desert’s Hand. Flickr.